Thursday, December 1, 2011

love after war

I think passion is my strength. It brings no shame to me when I really feel strongly about something. It's how I feel and I can't deny it and why would I even try to? Our passions make up who we are and it's ok to let go and see where it takes you. The ultimate downfall about feeling so strongly for something is getting lost in it. Not coming up for air and drowning in thoughts and worries.

I say, stick to what you believe in. Stand up for yourself but always remain confident. I realize a twenty-something year old who has started new chapters in every aspect of her life might not remain confident in every moment, but just remember, these struggles will bring you to success.

I feel like my personal roller coaster of a life this past year is finally winding down. Looking back at the outrageous journey I chose to take, I don't regret standing up for myself or making mistakes. I'll never be the kind to silence my inner feelings and I'll even impulsively act on them sometimes. The truth is, I brought myself to a much more complicated life. I literally feel like I picked myself up from a perfect life and dropped myself into fire. However, there is love after war.

If after your war there is love, you've found the greatest feeling there is. You'll discover being loved for who you are and not what someone else wants you to be. You didn't change your true self just to remain average in this world. And for those of you who were to scared to gear up and go to war in your life, I'm not sure you'll ever know what love is. You've been sitting way too comfortably in your life to understand what us veterans have been through. I know you're judging, thinking that our passion is unstable and we need more control over our emotions. But I have to ask you... do you know what it feels like to make love after a fight? To feel completely displaced and misunderstood one second and the next second to be in the face of what made you so angry but holding it and calming it?

Surviving together, I think that is love after war. If my strong affection for someone or something requires me to go to war, I'll do it. Otherwise I wouldn't be passionate about it... and passion brings you to where you really want to be.





1 comment:

  1. Well said Eva, and well felt. Your passion makes you great....you're a tremendous person. ;)

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